BluE Scrubs

Tulis blog ni macam satu benda yang best pula. I used to write nearly everyday because to be honest I was lonely, far away from home, and in a twisted kind of way, my soul was tortured. At the time my ideas were like Victoria falls, tak cukup cukup nak tulis.

Pain and loneliness seem to be the active ingredients to write. It also helped at the time that I was in a job where I could say I don't mind not getting paid to do a day's job. Tak boleh hari2 la kan, lagu tu makan pasir la pulak. Everyday something happened that tickled me pink and I just wished I could tell it to somebody at home come the end of the day.

Was I unhappy though, looking back maybe I was. Now that I am not unhappy, the creative juices are drying up. Tak tahu apa nak tulis. Macam Avril Lavigne, lepas kawin all her songs are not as good as before. But today I handmade the secret Santa Ak a Christmas card for Geetha. Handsome jugak card tu. Woh creative lagi la Cik Miah ni.

I have been writing for 4 years now on and off. Can you believe it. In that time, I dodged a few guys and their rings, wasted hundreds of pounds on lame Malay guys, before my good old friend
from medical school proposed to me after he came back from Sierra Leone.

This is the guy who let me borrow his cycle carrier when we first started our housejob together, a guy who sahur with me in that derelict hospital accomodation in Ramadhan, the guy whose sense of humour beats Friends episode, the guy who would vegitate with me in the common room over the weekends because we couldn't be asked to socialize with pub people. I have always liked him but never in my life I could imagine him liking me in that sort of way then. He was way out of my league.

Next month marks 2 years we are married. I thank God for giving me the inability to say yes to anyone else in the past.

Kenapa sekarang baru nak cerita? sebab saya cinta kamu laa..vomit bowl kat tepi tu ye