BluE Scrubs

True, I have embarked on a new journey, treading unchartered waters. Not alone, and I am loving every second . He is my missing eye, my missing ear, my missing piece.

Standing where I am now, I could see, that the trail I left behind weren't as insignificant as I thought it would be. I have inflicted pain, bruised, wounded and scarred a few people.

Inadvertently, I stirred friendships. Caused wedge between people. It may seemed like I was fully conscious when I was in the situation, but now that I have stepped back well away from it all, I dare mutter why. Why that I led people on when I wasn't sure, why couldn't I say no and why was I happy playing naive.

"We were just friends" is not good enough. I was expected to know better.

Given chance I would do it differently, then maybe we would still be friends. But then again why would you want to be friends with somebody like me.

Forgive me.